coping with the loss of my grandad

Coping with the loss of my Grandad so i can’t remember alot of my grandad when i was growing up i remember him getting married to his late wife that is about it. So here it goes.

Christmas day 2010 my mum got a phone call of her sister “Our dad is in hospital dieing of cancer” the look on my mums face told it all.

My mum came of the phone and she said to me and my sister “that was your aunty on the phone grandad is in hospital dieing of cancer and he would like to see us all”.

So after 10 years of us not seeing or hearing anything of him he wanted to see us because he was dieing his wife had stopped him from seeing us.

The night we went to the hospital was very upsetting  remember walking out of the ward and just breaking down into tears we have already had a aunty die of cancer, we kept going to see him and he started to accept treatment and he said to one of the nurses “i am going to be one of your patients who is going to walk out of here and beat this”.

His wife and his 2 daughters except for my mum had a meeting with his doctor and they said “he can go home if his wife would left the nurses come and visit him and give him treatment” his wife refused and after she said no he just refused the treatment and from that day he went downhill. He eventually had to go into Douglas Macmillan hospice he slowly deteriated while he was in the there we had our weeks where we was told to stay there all night as we was not going to make it but he prove them wrong. They day eventually came.

my mum got a phone call of her sister you best come now hes ready to go we tried to get there but it was too late he had already took his last breath and i could not cope as he lay there in the bed we all knew it was not him lying just an empty shell, his funeral came and i could not stop crying we went to the pub after to have a strong drink it took me a while to grieve and i still grieve now January 2013 marks his 2 year anniversary we dont know what we are doing yet but we always go and visit his grave on the day and the sadness falls upon us all again.

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